college woes
i don't know what i want to do with my life.
i had my first real college meltdown a few nights ago when i realized just how much i've screwed myself over by slacking on getting college applications in. i'm almost done with my ut application and i'm about ready to send it in almost a month before the deadline, so i'm not so bad on that. but i realized how unprepared i was for the school of music application - who knew i needed three letters of recommendation? i sure didn't! so now i'm scrambling and at the same time i have to be thinking of going to austin for an audition i'm wholly unprepared for.
today i was sitting in calculus and listening to mrs. williams "teach," and i thought to myself that i would like to be a calculus teacher. i had that thought for about five seconds before i came to my senses. i don't even like calculus! but i realized that i have this instinct to make things better. like, seriously, my gut instinct when i see something wrong is to rush in and try to fix it. and without thinking, my mind suddenly decided i had some interest in teaching a subject i don't even like.
when i realized it i start to wonder whether the other things i've been telling myself i want to do with my life are really things i want to do or am i just subconsiously wanting to do them for some other reason? it's disconcerting.
had a really nice talk with mr. rinn on aim tonight about what to expect from a music degree and auditions and everything and it was amazingly helpful, because what freaks me out most about college is wanting to get everything right and i really don't feel like i can do that if i don't know what to expect. plus, he helped reassure me that no decision i make now is irreversible, so i'm much more at ease. i still have to get through some rather unappealing parts of the application process, though.
senior musical is going to rock! all right, i'm out.
wednesday, january 5th, 2005 at 11:35 pm • permalink • 4 comments
area band, whoo.
well, today was area auditions to see who moves on to all-state band. i didn't make it, and wasn't expecting to (i've never made area band before so just making it that far was a definite improvement for me). i made 13th out of 18 trombones (which, at face value, seems pretty bad, but that's out of the 18 that have already made it from the district and region tryouts... there are only something like 7 areas in texas, and they each comprise about 54 high schools, so 13th best trombonist out of 54 high schools is certainly good enough for me). i feel like i did my best, and even without practicing much i actually made a statistical improvement over my region spot. i made 6th at region and with three regions coming together for area, i should have made 16th, 17th, or 18th. but i made 13th, so i'm happy.
that said, our school got majorly shafted. out of the 20 people we took to region, only 3 made all-state. those would be andrew gastler (tenor sax), and natasha azad (bass clarinet), both of which really deserved it, and brian evans (trumpet). right now i'm tentatively planning on driving up to san antonio to see the concert, so if anyone can get a hold of a ticket from a friend or something, and would like to drive up there with me that friday after school and stay the weekend, lemme know.
to all of those people who did not make state, especially melanie, michelle, scott, and phil: you continue to amaze me on a daily basis, and most of you are inspiration for me to try harder. if some of you hadn't helped reassure me, i wouldn't have even bothered to go through the audition process this year. hopefully you'll keep up trying even when all there is to show for it is your own improvement. all of you rock! and, of course, if you ever feel like going out for some consolation ice cream or smoothies, let me know, i'm down with that. :o)
tonight was mom's birthday, so we went to carrabba's for dinner (yum!), and then went to shop around at barnes & noble. i really wanted to get the restaurant at the end of the universe, since i just finished the hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy, but they didn't have any copies in stock. instead, i picked up the system of the world by neal stephenson (the 3rd book in the baroque cycle (i haven't even finished the 1st one, and don't even own the 2nd one, but they didn't have any of those either... i figure i'll need it eventually)).
as a side note, i think i need some ocd medication. because right now it's really wigging me out that there's not a complete set of the hitchhiker's guide books that are all published in the same format. they closest they come is this new edition they came out with for the release of the movie, but they're paperback (and i prefer hardback because they will last forever) and for some inexplicable reason, they didn't bother publishing the second book in the same format. so i'm freaking out because i have to have an entire set that are all the same, and it doesn't exist. wah.
saturday, january 8th, 2005 at 9:46 pm • permalink • 6 comments
bookshelves!
am i a dork for getting excited over bookshelves? probably, but i don't care, since i got new ones today and now all my books fit! for some reason, i feel like i need to use a kat smilie. (((:
monday, january 10th, 2005 at 12:14 am • permalink • 6 comments
starbucks adventure
well, life has been much of the usual. school, homework, senior musical, sleep, repeat. today was different, though! we had a half day so the underclassmen could take benchmark tests, but the seniors weren't doing anything. they still made us come to school, though, because they wanted us to fill out forms for graduation and stuff. then we had a senior musical meeting with ms. gordon. then me, kat, staci, and sierra decided we didn't feel like sticking around so we snuck out past the golf cart lady and left school for starbucks. and then the cop who gave me the curfew ticket came into the same starbucks, but apparently he no longer cares if children are truant.
lunch was fun, we brought 2930984 people to chili's and kim ehrman even came! then i came home and took an awesome three-hour nap.
thursday, january 13th, 2005 at 11:37 pm • permalink • 4 comments
last region ever
well, region was... okay, i guess. it was pretty much definitely the least fun of all my region experiences because pretty much nothing happened the way i wanted it to. my only goal this year was to make wind ensemble because i've been in the same freaking band for three years (they take six trombones). so i make sixth, and they decide for some reason to stagger the chair order after the first five, i dunno, just because the universe hates me i guess. so by some bizarre chair ordering the person who actually made eighth ended up being sixth chair wind ensemble while i got bumped to first chair symphonic winds. the only person i even knew in my band was mallory, and she sat one million chairs away in the front row. okay, i think, at least this way i might get a cool solo like the first chair trombonist did last year. but apparently, this year was branded "year-in-which-every-first-chair-gets-a-solo-except-andy." also, our clinician was definitely the worst of the three. she would sometimes stop conducting altogether (usually in parts where the music would, you know, switch from 7/8 to 2/4 every bar and i was having to count rests) and just kind of dance, or close her eyes, or whatever. but whatever it was, it wasn't helping the band keep time. the only redeeming part was where she flicked the entire band off, but even then i had no one to share the laugh with. i sat next to some twitchy freshman who always looked pained whenever he had to speak to me. so pretty much it was a depressing waste of my time. at least i'll never have to do it again.
tonight was certainly much better. met up with andrew and kat at la madeleine, had some awesome salad and tomato basil soup... then when i went to go buy some dessert and a loaf of bread to take home, the cashier was just like, "don' worry 'bout the check" and walked off. i somehow feel like i stole from the french. but hey, you can't shake a stick at free bread. it's good too. then we went to see the aviator, which was amazing and ridiculously crazy all at the same time. it totally sucks you in to howard hughes's mental illness, but the whole film was soooo pretty that i just wanted to live in the 1930s for some weird reason. it still has me reeling, just from the one ridiculous plane explosion scene. i highly recommend it, but not if you have something to do afterwards, as the whole film is monumentally draining.
i applied to college today. go me.
monday, january 17th, 2005 at 1:18 am • permalink • 3 comments
now all we need is kilts
tonight was pretty much the best thing ever.
andy ewert + dan feldman = rockstars
thursday, january 20th, 2005 at 9:42 pm • permalink • 3 comments
i'm goin' to college!
well that's good.
sunday, january 23rd, 2005 at 7:03 pm • permalink • 7 comments
opening night
man, tonight was completely amazing.
anything goes, yes, that which has wholly dominated my life for three months now (christmas break not excluded!), finally opened tonight. and it was rockin'. it seriously was just a blast from from the first scene to the final curtain call, and it's awesome to get up in front of people and know that you're being appreciated for all your hard work. we seriously had a great show considering it was opening night. very few things went wrong and a great many things were just awesome! there really isn't a better feeling than you and everyone around you yelling and screaming in excitement coming off the stage at the very end. if you, yes you, are not planning on coming to the show, please leave a comment so that i can remember to come punch you tomorrow.
we're by far the best senior musical clear lake has seen in at least five years. and i'm not just saying that.
thursday, january 27th, 2005 at 11:33 pm • permalink • 9 comments
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